Army strong

I've always had dreams of being in the military. Though in the dream I was usually a guy with a buzz cut with a tattoo of an anchor on my left bicep. Sounds messed up. It is. But I knew as a girl I couldn't do the same stuff in the military and I wanted to be a guy in the military. I have made peace with being a woman (usually), though sometimes it's annoying but I am getting more feminine as I grow older. But I still want to serve. I want to do basic, I want to push myself as hard as possible. I want to hurt at the end of the day. I want to shoot center. I want to be disciplined, I want to know that I can do what ever I set my mind to, that I can face anything, any challenges that can come up in my life I can overcome then. Cause I am army strong. Sadly this isn't a dream that will be fulfilled. As much as I want it, its not practical for me at this point in my life and it's a dream I am going to have to forget. But I will find other outlets in my life that can push me hard and build me up and help me overcome anything. I plan on getting serious in martial arts, which will give me courage and discipline and make me strong, just not army strong. I'm going to be one of those old grandmothers telling soldiers when I was your age I wanted to be in the army too but...