Falling to pieces

Yea that's kind of what happened last night. During the day I had a wonderful talk with a friend. We walked around for 3 hours, talking about everything since I haven't seen him in 2 months. We were playfully fighting and just having a great time. At night the guy I was seeing for only a week called and said he didn't want to see me anymore. I have not had a real relationship in about 10 months with one thing imbetween but overall I have been single for a while and with my last 2 breakups I haven't cried. But with this I lost it. I don't know if I was starting to like him, didn't understand why I was being rejected yet again or also petrified since tomorrow I am moving 6000 miles for good by myself and I am so scared but also excited. He was going to be in the same country for me and I was excited to think that I had a support system. He seemed liked the real deal. We weren't physical, no kiss or anything. It was sweet, slow, and smiple and felt right. It came out of the blue that he dumped me and it shouldn't matter as they say (I don't know who they is) that no guy is worth crying over and the one that is wont make you cry. There are very few guys that I have not cried over. This guy didst like me, goodbye, good luck and one to getting myself strong again, moving, settling in, finding my crowd and eventually dating when I find a good guy again. It's just weird because he gave me mixed signals he called me beautiful and his girl and said he loved to spend time with me and was going to miss me. Its just odd, he said he felt no connection and it felt like good friends. Thats how he felt and I;m happy he told me. But this brings me to a point I want to make. I think relationships should start off as good friends, not lust and romance. That doesn't last usually. Yes you should be dating and not just friends. But it should have all the things friendships have- like lots of laughter, comfortable being around each other, having a good time. I feel like everyone's looking for that crazy feeling to hit them, heart pounding like mad, butterflies in their stomach, tingling. Thats not what love is. Thats lust. Love comes out of true friendship, a mutual appreciation and respect for each other. i know it doesn't sound as much fun as lust but its longer lasting. That's what I'm looking for and thats what I found with this guy. Maybe he felt differently or maybe he doesn't believe in the friend first rule. Regardless Its ok. I had a lot of friends that calmed me down, I am doing fine, getting ready to move, and move on with my life.